Last month, my grandmother was pass away. My grandmother pass away due to disease and hard to breath during the night. I wondering what you guys feel that time if the closes relative, friends, and family pass away. Frankly say, at that time I was hard to believe it. I barely say anytime that time and I just look at my grandmother corpse and don't know what else I can say.
A lot of things come to my mind and that time I still naive that feeling like my grandmother is asleep only and everything will be okay by tomorrow. I know well that this is one of the escapism behavior.At that time, I saw a lot of things, my relative's behavior especially my niece and the youngster. Some of them are crying but most of them, are just feel nothings and playing around. I not sure about it, perhaps they are less interact with grandmother and less come back home visiting her so less emotional compare to us.
I had take some time to recover from this emotional feeling. Every time I will unintentionally take out my phone and called my grandmother and I know that it was impossible. It just the behavior can't change. I believe my grandmother will be happy in heaven and will have a lot of friends also at there.
