Graduation

It's graduation days. What should I do next? 

Sadness

Last month, my grandmother was pass away. My grandmother pass away due to disease and hard to breath during the night. I wondering what you guys feel that time if the closes relative, friends, and family pass away. Frankly say, at that time I was hard to believe it. I barely say anytime that time and I just look at my grandmother corpse and don't know what else I can say.

A lot of things come to my mind and that time I still naive that feeling like my grandmother is asleep only and everything will be okay by tomorrow. I know well that this is one of the escapism behavior.At that time, I saw a lot of things, my relative's behavior especially my niece and the youngster.  Some of them are crying but most of them, are just feel nothings and playing around. I not sure about it, perhaps they are less interact with grandmother and less come back home visiting her so less emotional compare to us. 

I had take some time to recover from this emotional feeling. Every time I will unintentionally take out my phone and called my grandmother and I know that it was impossible. It just the behavior can't change. I believe my grandmother will be happy in heaven and will have a lot of friends also at there.

BOMBER MAN!!!!

Today we are going to talk about something that is not so serious. Do you guys still remember what is the game you guys play when children time? 

Previously, I accidentally found back one of the video game that store inside my computer. The game was Bomber Man !! I straight playing that video game once I found it. Quite a nice game though. I not sure about nowadays what kind of game available in the market because I getting seldom in playing video game. The latest game I ever play I can think of is Left for Dead. That one is also a great game, however, this bomber man still can bring back a lot of my childhood memory especially the screaming of my brother when I "boom" him in the game. 

The graphic of the game although not that advance compare to the video game nowadays, but I believe that the game is still that interesting and easiest ways for me to spend my leisure time. 

Birthday

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you~" 

When your birthday coming, what first come to your mind?

Celebration, gifts, cake, party, wishes. Birthday was the most wonderful day in our life. It celebrate the day we born. The day we have a new life. The day we have the family. The day that we have our own name. The day that our mother suffering. 

In ancient Chinese society, they are more likely consider the birthday was the day that the mother suffering.  Mother had pregnant and conceived us for 10 months. During that time, their body was under the great pain no matter physically or psychologically. This kind of feeling become worst when the child are going to born. In Chinese, they believe that when the mother born the baby, it consider that they have stand in front of the door of hell, whether alive, or death. This is true statement where some mother was actually death after born the baby. Without our mother fighting in the surgery room, having the both strong physically and psychological mental, we are not able to bring to this world. That is why the day where we are born, is the day that our mother suffering. Mother are willing to do anythings for us,protecting us, teaching us, give us all her best. But, what have we give them? 

Unfortunately, children nowadays do not realize about this matter. When their birthday, they always tend to ask too much. They request everything they want, a good birthday party, a dream prize and so on. They are king and queen when birthday. Every inch of their needs must be fulfill and must over their expectation if possible. They have forget the story behind when they are born, how suffer their mother bring them to life, how much suffer that facing during that 10 months. They will never know until they are become other's mother. 

So when your birthday, please give a big hug to your mother. Say thanks to them but not asking from them. And say: " Mother, I love you, thanks you for bringing me to this world."

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Expect nothing

I believe that everyone have things that they expected in their life. No matter who. Baby, they expect have love and care so do the children. They expect have people give presents, foods, and toys to them especially during their birthday and Christmas. It's pretty simply needs isn't? 

Let's go deeper. When we grow up, the desire also grow and so do the needs. We expect high performance, high exam result, high quality of school, have a lot of good friends, they willing to help us and follow what we hope so, we expect achieve in others do not achieve. So, is this a good phenomenon? I would like to say both good and bad. Because people desire, we tend to achieve, we tend to discover more. Without discover, what would our world to be? As advance as now? However, compare to last time, people nowadays tend to be expected more and desire more which lead to the bad outcome. 

When open newspaper, how many student are commit suicide due to the bad performance? How many employees and employers are getting more tension everyday and had psychology problem and depress everyday? How many people are can't accept the reality and "escape" from life? We also heard people say that so disappointing on others, disappointing in something. But, what to say we change our mindset?

Try to think like this: Every outcome is a gift from God. If the result is bad, just let it be, perhaps this is the challenging that you must overcome in order to get stronger. We are not born to know everything isn't? We accumulate our knowledge and experience so that wouldn't repeat it in the future. There is nothings to be depress about. We expect too much things in our life. So why don't we give it a break? We no need to live so tension. If have problem, we solve it, if we not able to solve it, we try to get help from other, as we have try out best, there is nothing we can regret about. The most sadness case is that the student are easily commit suicide because of poor result. Your life is not that cheap and how about your parents? They had spend their whole life in raise you up and this is the things you pay back for them? We fail today do not mean that we fail everyday. Try you best, expect nothing and you will not be dissapointed. 

Prove them wrong

You can't do this! This is out of your limit! You are not one of them! You will just hurting yourself! You are wasting your time! Just stick to the plan! 

Is that always what we heard around us? In life, there are many haters, passion and dreams killers. There will keep on telling you what you can do and what you can't do. You like to draw mural, your parents force you to play piano. You like to play basketball, your friend tell you that you are too short that capable for this sport. You try to learn new music instrument, they tease you. All of this will drag us out of our path to success.

Friends, family, it so hard to tell but it was true. They are your dream killers, they are your passion killers especially your close friends. In school, in university, in workplace, even in family, your brother and sister, they hope to shape you to what they want to. They want you to be same like them. They are the first person that you talk to about your dreams, if lucky enough, they will motivate you and supporting you. Unfortunately, in most cases, especially friends, they stopped you. They warn you, they frighten you. You might be frighten out, you might be stop what you hope to do. Than you are wrong, you are just one of them.

Prove them wrong! Prove them you are the special one. You are able to see things that they cannot see and you can exceed their expectation. Jack Ma, the founder of Alibaba, he said before: " If you don’t give up, you still have a chance. Giving up is the greatest failure." Think again, is that worth that you give up your dreams just based on that few sentences that spoke by those people? You might be the next Michael Jordan, you might be the next Taylor Swift, you might be the next Beethoven! You could be anyone! Prove to them! Prove them wrong! Prove you can shape your own life! 

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